Only time will tell…

[johnson2113]

If it was time well spent.

Well, it wasn’t. Hasn’t been.

I have spent the last 2 hours asking me twin sister to tell the stories. She is absolutely useless. I don’t even know what to do anymore. Ain’t got know one on my side.

[Gnocco]

Kind of vague……Twin life, I am not a twin, but my kids are.

[johnson2113]

Kind of vague……Twin life, I am not a twin, but my kids are.

Sorry about that, the last year my twin and her husband have taken advantage of me. I kept waiting and waiting for them look at me as an equal but they haven't. I thought they would. This last weekend they really pushed me too far. We've had a long couple of weeks of baseball on the road. I've always look at my "little" sister and her husband as people that I needed to be responsible for. They are in their 40's now and they teamed up, drunk, on me this weekend.

Everyone I know has been young and pretty and fit and I wasn't anything like that until I was almost 28 years old. They have always beat into my head that I'm pessimistic, miserable, hateful, don't like people. I have never felt like that, but I guess if that's the perception they have of me, that's how I must be.

I've always felt the exact opposite. Tried my butt off to be enthusiastic and excited and maybe even an extrovert. Yes, I do get riled up during ball games. I will chew a lot of, *butt*, but after the game is over, win or lose I will be out there to pump up the players.

We have a month off, lots of soul searching to do. Lots of things to think about.

I will post a season update viewtopic.php?t=103357 Team had a great season, and ended it on a sour note. I'm really struggling to understand how things ended like they did, but I will post all the details there, because things seem to be swept under the rug and someone has to know what happened.

[SeaFans]

You play baseball?

[Dr.Corona]

Kind of vague……Twin life, I am not a twin, but my kids are.

Sorry about that, the last year my twin and her husband have taken advantage of me. I kept waiting and waiting for them look at me as an equal but they haven't. I thought they would. This last weekend they really pushed me too far. We've had a long couple of weeks of baseball on the road. I've always look at my "little" sister and her husband as people that I needed to be responsible for. They are in their 40's now and they teamed up, drunk, on me this weekend.

Everyone I know has been young and pretty and fit and I wasn't anything like that until I was almost 28 years old. They have always beat into my head that I'm pessimistic, miserable, hateful, don't like people. I have never felt like that, but I guess if that's the perception they have of me, that's how I must be.

I've always felt the exact opposite. Tried my butt off to be enthusiastic and excited and maybe even an extrovert. Yes, I do get riled up during ball games. I will chew a lot of, *butt*, but after the game is over, win or lose I will be out there to pump up the players.

We have a month off, lots of soul searching to do. Lots of things to think about.

I will post a season update viewtopic.php?t=103357 Team had a great season, and ended it on a sour note. I'm really struggling to understand how things ended like they did, but I will post all the details there, because things seem to be swept under the rug and someone has to know what happened.

Sorry to hear of all the family challenges Jered. Therapists will say you can't control how others act towards you, but you can choose how you react to them. Know it's not easy but the best reaction is to try & stay away from any negativity & go about your business.
In regards to the team....focus on the great season. Try & let the sour note fade away unless if what happened was unhealthy towards someone's mind or body. My 2 cents. Good luck with everything

[johnson2113]

You play baseball?

Well, I did as a kid, I just focus on my nephew, because he is a world beater. Jimmy may have not have been a Pete Rose, but my nephew is. He's a world beater. I just live for shooting the game. Doesn't matter to me whether they are good or not as long as the love the game.

[johnson2113]

Kind of vague……Twin life, I am not a twin, but my kids are.

Sorry about that, the last year my twin and her husband have taken advantage of me. I kept waiting and waiting for them look at me as an equal but they haven't. I thought they would. This last weekend they really pushed me too far. We've had a long couple of weeks of baseball on the road. I've always look at my "little" sister and her husband as people that I needed to be responsible for. They are in their 40's now and they teamed up, drunk, on me this weekend.

Everyone I know has been young and pretty and fit and I wasn't anything like that until I was almost 28 years old. They have always beat into my head that I'm pessimistic, miserable, hateful, don't like people. I have never felt like that, but I guess if that's the perception they have of me, that's how I must be.

I've always felt the exact opposite. Tried my butt off to be enthusiastic and excited and maybe even an extrovert. Yes, I do get riled up during ball games. I will chew a lot of, *butt*, but after the game is over, win or lose I will be out there to pump up the players.

We have a month off, lots of soul searching to do. Lots of things to think about.

I will post a season update viewtopic.php?t=103357 Team had a great season, and ended it on a sour note. I'm really struggling to understand how things ended like they did, but I will post all the details there, because things seem to be swept under the rug and someone has to know what happened.

Sorry to hear of all the family challenges Jered. Therapists will say you can't control how others act towards you, but you can choose how you react to them. Know it's not easy but the best reaction is to try & stay away from any negativity & go about your business.
In regards to the team....focus on the great season. Try & let the sour note fade away unless if what happened was unhealthy towards someone's mind or body. My 2 cents. Good luck with everything

Doc, your words mean the world to me. I totally agree. I know after the girls rolled like a group of hardcore, hardcore ladies and at the end of the day, I got one of the team's medals. All the people in the world, I got one, it's my charm, it's with me 365 days out of the year. I never go anywhere without it.

I, I have been in charge of everything for everyone. I do have a low opinion of myself, but I have tried to take care of everything. I really can't describe everything. I got the medal. Then we hit the baseball season and one of our OG Shark moms put together a massive donation for me, then I shot my aunt's 50th high school reunion, my parents have been beyond generous for me helping them out.

I don't do any of things I do for people for "rewards", I do it because I love all of these people. Being in the moment, capturing the moment, doing the God awful scumming jobs, I am beyond thrilled to do them.

Just at some point, I look for the meaningless gesture. "Jerred needs this, we will all give it to him".

I can fight through it, means everything to me what you said, Doc. Thank you. Time to put my f***ing head down and get to work.

[johnson2113]

One last comment. Because.

Does anyone know what it's like? Someone has to know the lyrics, hang on, I'm listening to a great Whitney Houston song. Then I'll find the 'Jimmy' song to get the lyrics right.

"Well, I ain't often been right, but I've never been wrong."

I just want to get a day to go out and get my ear pierced, like Jimmy, and Ed, and Harrison.

[SeaFans]

Clicked thinking we were gonna be talking Bob Marley